Friday, 23 September 2011

what happened to me?

Week 2 has been a struggle ... I don't know why ... I can honestly not give you an exact answer, why I have basically done nothing (mostly in terms of exercise), except for Monday when I was sick. Exhaustion? Lack of planning? Motivation? I'm not happy about it and have no excuse for it. I want to succeed, so why am I sabotaging?

I did find that after week one I was sore and exhausted, not really so much from the exercise, but working. It was the first busy week I had at work, and now that I am a Registered Nurse and no longer a student nurse, I am coming to see how truly exhausting and draining the work can be, especially because responsibilities are increased 10 fold. So maybe I've just spent week 2, winding down? I know what I'm doing here ... I'm trying to justify to myself and everyone else as to why I haven't exercised and my food has been OK but not at the standard it should be. It's an excuse. And really I need to get my act together if I want to succeed. But right now I just can't find that push within myself to drag myself to the gym or outside for a walk/run. Help me find it!!!

Now I got the pen and paper out and re-planning. Planning each meal - mixing around things I do/don't like. Making sure I pack that bloody gym back. I've also decided that rather than doing shopping on Thursday when the new shopping list comes out, I think it may be better to do it on Saturday or Sunday, that way I don't end up wasting food that is meant to be used later in the week, because it's gone off. Currently I think there's maybe $10-20 worth of food in my fridge that I can probably chuck out, not only because my diet hasn't been optimal this week, but also because I bought them too early. The biggest one is any form of leaf - spinach, rocket, lettuce, etc. I guess with the food and shopping, it's a bit of a play around, that maybe somethings need to be bought at different times in the week in order for them to be at their freshest, and not to overstock or understock. Though understocking would be better, as can always go out and buy more.

Either way I need to have a kick up the bum and get back into this, otherwise I'm not only wasting my time, I'm wasting Mish's time, my money, and just cheating myself.

1 comment:

Kristal said...

Hi just popping in to see how you are doing?